Popular culture

Popular culture seems to idolize a certain way of living. As I listened to “Pop That Pussy” by 2 Live Crew, I couldn’t help but notice the themes: open sex, partying hard, doing drugs, and living without limits. The message is clear—freedom means indulgence. In another one of their songs, “Banned in the USA,” the group pushes back against censorship, arguing that their lyrics are misunderstood and not meant to promote violence or disrespect toward women. They claim to be simply expressing pleasure and freedom in a new era, pushing against the morals of those who don’t understand—likely white, conservative America. Hearing those lyrics made me reflect on the current state of popular culture, especially from my perspective as a middle-class white guy in my early twenties. Today, in much of rap, movies, and TikTok, there’s this ever-present sense that to be “free” is to act on every desire. If you want to fuck, you fuck. If you want to do drugs, you do them. If you want to party and lose ...

June 22

I texted my boss today asking for a raise. He said we'd talk about it tomorrow in person. It took a lot for me to do that but it's something I'd been contemplating and feeling very restless over. We will see how the talk goes, I'm preparing to be firm and not be a pushover. 

It feels good though when I face the thing that is bothering me rather than letting it pester away at me. These types of situations have been a common occurrence in my life and unfortunately, I don't face them. Instead, I let it build up, which creates inner tension and resentment towards other parties involved as well as myself. Eventually, this tension can't last and I explode. 

In my experience, I held those feelings in because I feared losing something. Now I've been living my life as if there isn't anything to lose. If my job can't accept paying me better then I will find another job. If a girl rejects me, I will simply find another girl. 

The theory of what I'm saying is something I've always thought about but bringing it to reality has never happened until now. I still don't know how I will react if I lose the job, it will probably hurt but I just have to have continued faith in myself and the path I choose to lead. 

The only thing I can lose in life is the way I choose to live it. That can be taken away from me if I don't assert my needs.

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