Popular culture

Popular culture seems to idolize a certain way of living. As I listened to “Pop That Pussy” by 2 Live Crew, I couldn’t help but notice the themes: open sex, partying hard, doing drugs, and living without limits. The message is clear—freedom means indulgence. In another one of their songs, “Banned in the USA,” the group pushes back against censorship, arguing that their lyrics are misunderstood and not meant to promote violence or disrespect toward women. They claim to be simply expressing pleasure and freedom in a new era, pushing against the morals of those who don’t understand—likely white, conservative America. Hearing those lyrics made me reflect on the current state of popular culture, especially from my perspective as a middle-class white guy in my early twenties. Today, in much of rap, movies, and TikTok, there’s this ever-present sense that to be “free” is to act on every desire. If you want to fuck, you fuck. If you want to do drugs, you do them. If you want to party and lose ...

June 28

Today I took some shrooms. Penis Envy's to be precise. I usually stick to the chocolate bars but have been using those for a while and thought I'd experiment with something new. I had bought an eighth and did a little more than half figuring the strain is about 1.5 times as potent. In hindsight, I should have done more since the trip was fairly mellow but I have no regrets. 

The one note I jotted down on my phone was this.


"Never do anything for anyone. Do it for yourself. If you want to impress anyone, impress yourself."


Wow, I'm truly a visionary... 

Although this sounds like every single motivational speech on the planet, in the moment I could truly feel the meaning behind it. If I had to recall what brought these thoughts to mind I'd think about the feelings and words I hold back when around others. These are usually personal feelings or aspirations. I really wish I had just one person to talk to who I didn't feel was judging me. 


Here is a list of some topics I shy away from talking about. I will try and slowly be more about talking about these things with close friends.


My feelings (will talk about feeling happy but never about feeling sad)

My writing

My projects



My mind was pretty scrambled writing all this but I got the general topics out. I was wearing my grey hoodie and Air Force's today. I love that fit.




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