Popular culture

Popular culture seems to idolize a certain way of living. As I listened to “Pop That Pussy” by 2 Live Crew, I couldn’t help but notice the themes: open sex, partying hard, doing drugs, and living without limits. The message is clear—freedom means indulgence. In another one of their songs, “Banned in the USA,” the group pushes back against censorship, arguing that their lyrics are misunderstood and not meant to promote violence or disrespect toward women. They claim to be simply expressing pleasure and freedom in a new era, pushing against the morals of those who don’t understand—likely white, conservative America. Hearing those lyrics made me reflect on the current state of popular culture, especially from my perspective as a middle-class white guy in my early twenties. Today, in much of rap, movies, and TikTok, there’s this ever-present sense that to be “free” is to act on every desire. If you want to fuck, you fuck. If you want to do drugs, you do them. If you want to party and lose ...

July 12

 Didn't set an alarm this morning and woke up feeling groggy around 9:30 AM. The past few days I have been getting up at 6:30 and following a tight schedule of stretching, gym or kickboxing, and then meditation. 

Usually, I'll follow up with basketball later in the day as well. Staying active has helped but I've been sore and decided a Wednesday is a good day to take a day off. I did but didn't skip the meditation or basketball and spent the rest of the day idle. 

I don't think I'm going to skip the gym again for a while because man do these thoughts suck. Meditation has helped me realize and look at the thoughts through a different looking-glass however, the thoughts are very much present. 

Today has been a lot about getting swept up in a thought and the feelings it brings with it, usually of shame or guilt and then realizing it's just a thought. The problem is this keeps happening constantly. 


I just watched a podcast of a guy explaining how he meditated and he said he did an hour a day for about 60 days before the voices and trauma really seemed to get better. So I'll try and implement that into my schedule seeing that I have more free time.

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