Popular culture

Popular culture seems to idolize a certain way of living. As I listened to “Pop That Pussy” by 2 Live Crew, I couldn’t help but notice the themes: open sex, partying hard, doing drugs, and living without limits. The message is clear—freedom means indulgence. In another one of their songs, “Banned in the USA,” the group pushes back against censorship, arguing that their lyrics are misunderstood and not meant to promote violence or disrespect toward women. They claim to be simply expressing pleasure and freedom in a new era, pushing against the morals of those who don’t understand—likely white, conservative America. Hearing those lyrics made me reflect on the current state of popular culture, especially from my perspective as a middle-class white guy in my early twenties. Today, in much of rap, movies, and TikTok, there’s this ever-present sense that to be “free” is to act on every desire. If you want to fuck, you fuck. If you want to do drugs, you do them. If you want to party and lose ...

Oct 16

 I'm going to practice using fewer "I"s and "I'm"s so this might be rough.


Yesterday, I had to complete a CPR class for my job. As I walked into the classroom I immediately noticed someone I knew from work and a club I was in. We chatted a bit and then class began. A few minutes in the door opens and another co-worker walks in, who just like the last was also in the same club. This guy is a little more outgoing and loud. I'm not sure how it started but pretty soon I was unable to control my laughter and neither was the late coworker. We were both squirming in our seats and every slight glance we made towards each other triggered another explosion of laughter. Pretty soon the instructors began to get upset and told us to be mature which sobered me up a bit. Then came the part where we had to give each other fake CPR which as you can imagine didn't help the situation. Eventually, we made it to the end and passed the class thankfully.

In the past, having the attention on me as the instructor scolded me might have triggered some deep-rooted shame, but I honestly couldn't care less. I told him I was sorry and that I was trying not to and that was all. I don't think I've laughed at anything that hard since high school 4-5 years ago. It was very refreshing.


I started sleeping with this girl who I was friends with last year. It's been pretty bland and we can't seem to communicate well at all. After the first time we slept together I wouldn't have been surprised if we never talked again. It was a little awkward and afterward, we didn't talk openly or anything. We haven't even talked about what we want from the relationship, instead we talk about surface-level things. We did sleep together again afterward so I was wrong with my assumptions. I think we are both pretty emotionally withdrawn so maybe we can work on it together. 




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