cognitive distortions

I've started to notice negative self talk I have with myself when I'm alone. I tend to leave interactions happy but after spending time alone quickly turn my memory of them into a negative mush. I told my therapist about this and he said it's something called cognitive distortions which can occur when someone has been traumatized.  I notice them after work or even in planning future events. For example, I'd like to host a party with some co-workers and friends. The first thought that comes to mind about said party is that no one will have a good time and I will be judged for it. I really just want to do it to get over this fear and self-doubt. 

Jan 1

I can see the two paths I can go down. The first are those who pride themselves in being real and not chasing the money. The alt crowd who are open to anything. Then there’s the route of wealth, pride, and respect. This path is about suffering to get what you want. It doesn’t really matter what you do but as long as you do it well and make money you can live a good life. This life is more about appearances while the prior is about feelings. 

Is one inherently wrong or is it all objective. 

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