cognitive distortions

I've started to notice negative self talk I have with myself when I'm alone. I tend to leave interactions happy but after spending time alone quickly turn my memory of them into a negative mush. I told my therapist about this and he said it's something called cognitive distortions which can occur when someone has been traumatized.  I notice them after work or even in planning future events. For example, I'd like to host a party with some co-workers and friends. The first thought that comes to mind about said party is that no one will have a good time and I will be judged for it. I really just want to do it to get over this fear and self-doubt. 
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Memories

I often go back through my day and the interactions I had during it. I’ll think about what I could have said differently and how they must have felt by what I said. I always think about how much they must hate me because I didn’t say or do everything perfectly. I can’t bear the idea that I am imperfect and make mistakes. I think I separate myself from that identity because it’s scary to live in that reality.

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