cognitive distortions

I've started to notice negative self talk I have with myself when I'm alone. I tend to leave interactions happy but after spending time alone quickly turn my memory of them into a negative mush. I told my therapist about this and he said it's something called cognitive distortions which can occur when someone has been traumatized.  I notice them after work or even in planning future events. For example, I'd like to host a party with some co-workers and friends. The first thought that comes to mind about said party is that no one will have a good time and I will be judged for it. I really just want to do it to get over this fear and self-doubt. 
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March 17

My mind battles between two separate ideologies. One of survival, where fitting in means everything and doing what others do like apply to internships and corporate jobs. The other part of me believes more in the present moment and enjoying what you have and not trying to force change. Both have their moments and me me feel good and bad sometimes. I think the real problem with this is that it keeps me stuck and unless I actively try something and go against my battling mind, I will actually get to experience life. 

So just as a reminder to myself. I'm going to go against the thoughts that will lead me astray and instead choose something to pursue. This means sacrificing other things you like doing or at least scheduling your day around this certain activity. This doesn't mean it's the thing you have to do for the rest of your life but it's something you really want to try.


Ok thats enough. Here is a picture of a building.



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