As a recent graduate I feel an immense pressure to get a "real job" instead of continuing to work as a server. To an extent I think I really want this for myself too since serving takes a lot out of me. I do really enjoy the environment but I think it's mostly because of the women. All the servers working are primarily women and living on campus you get some absolutely beautiful girls as coworkers. Often make or break days really depend on my interactions with them. I like it cause I get to practice talking to them but It's also a work environment and I don't want to be weird. I can never tell if they are into me or just being friendly.
Anyway, I don't know how ready I am to give that experience up for a corporate job which will probably have much older co-workers who take it much more seriously. Which leads me to my next point about the difference in living styles. Are you happier if you love what you do and dedicate yourself to learning or are you happier working so that you can do things that make you happy outside of work. I lean heavily towards believing in the first option but I don't feel like I have that passion for anything right now. There are plenty of things I find interesting, like programming, and engineering but getting myself to study them and go back to school to find a job sounds horrible and pretty unachievable for me.
So, I'm stuck in this dilemma of wanting to follow a passion in work but not finding one so staying at the same job and not being content with it. On top of all that I get these occasional bursts of existential crises which derail a lot of the progress I made towards a certain goal. The problem is my world view is too lucid and I can't stay on the tracks.
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